Perfected Scones.
View recipe here: https://www.allrecipes.com/recipe/79470/simple-scones/
Moving back to Connecticut I was confident in the fact that I would have a job within a few months, and I wouldn’t be jobless again, like I was the first year I had moved to Illinois. Well, guess what…I am jobless, but not because I’m not an ideal worker, at least that’s what I hope people don’t think haha. No, but really things have changed since Josh and I decided to move back to Connecticut.
First of all, it is dang hard to convince someone to hire you from out of state, and believe me I tried, but I also didn’t want what happened to me a couple of years ago, when I moved out of Connecticut, to happen again. I did the whole Indeed thing, the LinkedIn thing, networking thing, but nothing budged. What happened next changed everything!
Let me rewind real quick, Josh and I had been praying, looking, and exploring our options of where to move about 9 months prior to when we eventually did. Our lease was going to be up and we had to move either way because our landlord only rented out to students at the school. Since Josh was finishing grad school, we had to move. We had to take everything into consideration; would we stay in the same area so I could stay at my job? would we move into the city of Chicago? Would we have to start all over again? Could we find a place with public transportation for me? How would our schedules line up together? There were so many questions it was overwhelming.
Now, it was the end of April and we had to make a decision, our lease was up in a month! Then, Josh somehow convinced our landlord to allow us to stay another 2 months, we would be gone by July 1st. The tension was high, and Josh shared he was going on a missions trip, he invited me, I said I’d think about it, but had so much other stuff on my mind. Soon after things started to fall into place to move back to Connecticut, we had a place to stay, maybe some job options, we would have community, and public transit, which meant some Independence for me!
So we made the call and said yes to an apartment, (which happens to be a few floors above my younger sister and her husband). Then it happened I felt the push and excitement to go on my first mission trip outside of the country…with my husband…missions together, something so sweet about it. The next couple of days I wrote up my resignation letter, waited for the right moment to tell everyone, and just like that, I was off to Guatemala, ready to leave this 2 year season behind. One large impact while in Guatemala was listening to a teaching, one of the last nights there. It resonated with Josh and my situation; Illinois was our training ground for what we were going to be going back to in Connecticut. Had we learned what we were supposed to while in Illinois?
I found myself reflecting a lot after this. Realizing how much of a stronger individual I was. How much more confident I was in my relationship with God and in the person I was created to be. I could keep going but I was realizing how happy I was coming out of what was a hard season, I was beginning to understand who I truly was and to stand tall in that!
So this is the big boom in my mind that happened: The whole time I was looking for jobs in social work, doing what I went to school for, and what I knew I was good at. Although, I was stressing out just thinking about going back to a job like I had back in Illinois. I realized how stressed the job made me, to the point my stress would give me stomach pains, make me sick, hinder me from eating. It wasn’t until I was removed from the situation that I saw a difference.
So, as I once again found myself sitting on the floor of our new apartment, with everything unpacked and put into place, I couldn’t help but think…” here I am again.” With hopelessness, stress, and anxiety beginning to creep into me; that is when I truly hit me. I didn’t want to go back into social work, I just wanted to cook and bake all day. With the weeks following I would toss around the idea with family and friends. This was my new dream and everyone around me was confirming it.
“Here I am again” was right, and here I am jobless. Although now I have a passion to strive for, I’m no longer hopeless in being jobless. I have realized a lot more than I can share with you all right here, but there are so many things to think about when it comes to a job and navigating around all the “what ifs,” because it doesn’t just effect me, it also affects Josh too. Right now though, I know I am following this new desire I have, this new dream and passion. To cook and bake with you, show you all my favorite recipes, share my highs and lows with you, and maybe, just maybe inspire you or make an impact in one way or another.
View recipe here: https://www.allrecipes.com/recipe/79470/simple-scones/